Revelations

I've been meaning to start this for a few months now, but I haven't really been willing to put in the necessary effort to actually get started. Hi, my name is Charles and I'm going to tell you two things about myself that you didn't already know/ couldn't have guessed by looking at my profile while simultaneously telling you the entire point of this blog. (If you want the gist skip to the last paragraph)

Thing #1) In 2010 I gave up my life to Christ. Up until a few months ago I believed whole-heartedly in my religion, and my faith was a huge part of my life. Then, suddenly, I realized that none of the questions I had about God have answers. I realizeed that I don't actually believe all of the stuff I have managed to convince myself I believe in.

Thing #2) Around seventh or eighth grade I stopped feeling emotions. It was more like a realization than anything. When I was a kid I was sad all the time for absolutely no reason, then I just wasn't anything at all. I have no idea why it's like this but I don't think I'd prefer it any other way. All of my friends get anxious or upset about the littlest things, and I don't. I just don't care.

My last reason for starting this blog is my best friend. We met about nine months ago when school started, but we didn't become really close until I graduated in January and we started hanging out outside of school. She has memory problems, and she doesn't really remember the first six months of our friendship. Which pretty much sucks, because a few months from now she won't remember right now, and we're kind of going through something. You see, from the beginning our relationship pretty much banked on the idea that we were essentially exactly alike. We had the same taste in music, we hung out with the same people, we finished each other's thoughts, we liked the same books, it was weird. Then kind of recently I realized that we aren't really as alike as I originally thought we were... (I'll elaborate on this later)

Basically, I'm 18 years old and I feel like a jaded 30-something ex-hipster with kids. But I don't want to feel like a jaded 30-something ex-hipster with kids, so this summer, before I go to college, my mission is to get rid of the Jaded 30 something ex-hipster with kids inside of me, and I'm going to take the internet on this mission with me.

Signed,
Charles